Thursday, January 22, 2009

In shock

So earlier I had started a blog about something totally different... but after the events of today; i must vent about it.

So- I am currently unemployed and not by my own personal choice. Granted, I wasn't loving my job anymore; however, I was shocked to see how the procedure of a company just flew out the window and people are treated.

I understand the politics of an office and I understand the Administrative side to things. Yet, when you have an employee in which is deemed "valuable" and "irreplaceable" (words they have used) to just fire them-or and I quote "let you go" without warning or any form of action plan, it goes to show that the majority rules. By that I mean you HAVE to know someone inorder to stay employed somewhere these days.

So, I went into work today with the migrane from HELL! I thought that my little head was going to explode. I could barely keep my eyes open and I had been throwing up all night from the pain. Well, I knew that my department was in need of my being present today because of how behind we currently are. Well, I get to work and suffered thru my day as much as possible. Around 2pm the Co-Admin comes walking in and asks to see me in her office. I get up go into the office where her and the office manager share a little office. Shes shuts the door, and I figured I was going to be written up for my poor attendance.

She tells me I look terrible-I told explained that my head was pounding and how I haven't had a headache like this since I was admitted to the hospital with Viral Meningitis.... But I knew that I had to be here because I wanted to get the department back to where it needed to be. She looked down and said, "Well, this is going to make things a little harder." I was slightly confused, still not expecting the swift kick to the gut I was about to get.

She tells me that my attendance has been slacking, yet "we aren't holding your hospital stay against you" and that it has only been on a downward spiral. Well, I stated that I understood and that I have really been trying to get matters under control. I do not have many people around who can help me out with the kids when I get in a pinch and my mirgaines have been coming back full force.

Then she looks to the ground, not at me not at all. "This has come from the top of administration, we have to let you go." I stared at her in complete shock for what felt like an eternity and then all I could muster what, "you have got to be kidding me?"

She then proceded with, well you had to have seen this coming. I was dumbfounded-utterly speechless. Nothing would even surface for me to retort with. My mind was in shock.

Oddly enough a code blue was called thru out the office and she took off to the waiting room where something had happened to a patient.... While in there with just the office manager, she asked me if I was ok.... ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I looked her in the eye and she turned away. Where in the HELL is the professionalism at people? I mean if you are going to fire someone, then at least give them the courtesy to look that person in the eye! I told her that I was utterly shocked that this didn't follow protocol. )That in the handbook we are told that a chain of events will take place unless the person at fault has endangered the office or staff in anyway. ) She replied to the floor-"we have talked to you about this before, amanda."

I informed her "no, karen! The only time my attendance was ever brought up was at my review in May. 8 months ago! Not once was I told we are going to need to write you up, or you need to watch your attendance, admin is looking at it and there is potential of letting you go. Where was the warning?" She had nothing to say.

Then the co- admin comes backs and has the audacity to say, "you can finish out the day if you like" ARE YOU F-ING KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!! I looked her straight in the eye "I will not be giving you anymore of my life!" I walked out... started to gather my things and left....I did not say goodbye to anyone... I did not waste anytime leaving that place.

I am not sad that I no longer work there... I am disgusted that I worked my ass off for that company and was never compensated for it, and then they just fire me. I revamped 3 departments and got the entire Medical Records dept set up for electronic filing. I have covered multiple positions while still maintaining my own. I do not claim to be the best of the best... But I can honestly say that I am a kick ass employee... I feel cheated!

I have calmed down from my sheer sense of pissosity and no longer feel super pissed, but extremely bitter!

The aftermath of it all, brings to me the knowledge that when the shit hits the fan... you learn who your true friends are. Oh well, I have learned if the people you meet thru out your life do not make it from one phase to the next, then they are not worth becoming a part of your future.


Melinda said...

awe, amanda that sucks, from your past blogs I know how hard you worked not only on your tasks but on others in the office to. I hope you find a better job.