Saturday, January 30, 2010

The start to new beginnings...

Two weeks down and still kicking some tae bo ass! Jennie and I have been doing different types of workouts to keep all parts of our body working at different times. We want the full potential of our workout. We have one day of rest and I have been doing pretty well at maintaining a decent diet. However, yesterday... I just wanted to eat and eat and eat and keep eating. ha ha ha!

It is completely amazing that I have been working out for a mere two weeks and I have already noticed so many differences. My posture has improved, my attitude has improved, and my sleeping habits are gotten better. I can actually sleep better. I may not being going to bed much earlier... but I am getting more out of the few hours I do sleep. It is wonderful!

Working out is my newest obsession... I think about it all the time. I catch myself doing some simple moves throughout my day while cooking, cleaning or playing with the kids. I LOVE IT!!!

My outlook on so many things is so amazing! My breathing is finally getting under control. I tried Yoga for beginners the other night and ohhhhh My chest never felt better. The stretching and the breathing has made it so much easier for me to catch my breath when it has been so difficult for me to do so before.

My dreams haven't been so overwhelmingly emotional for me. I have actually been able to wake up without still feeling the emotional downpour from my dreams. I have more energy and I see things more clearly.

Now to keep this up and work on the rest of my issues, then I will be all set!

There is more to come....

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Several years ago... about 7 to be more precise I had to have an laparoscopy of my ovaries. I had been having a terrible time and excruciating pain after Kyle was born and he was done nursing. It started off pretty ok... meaning that I didn't want to rip them out when they hurt... However, the pain did increase to the point where I was tempted to have all existing parts of a female reproductive system removed just to not be in pain anymore.

At that time I was seeing a doctor who told me that my chances of having more children would decreased significantly every year. He wanted to go in and take a look because all my tests were showing that there should be nothing wrong with me. Clear labs, clean ultrasounds... you name it... I should have been normal. (Me normal... ha ha ha ha ha ha-I find that hilarious)

Well... I had my surgery in Sept of 2002, Kyle was 2 years old and nothing else we were trying was working. SO......the surgery took place and the doctor found a benign tumor... the size of an ovary on my left one, which was about 2-3 times the size it should have been. Plus more cysts than could be calculated.

Well, let's just say that the week following surgery I was pumped full of pain pills (that pain was EVIL) and I slept pretty much the entire 7 days before my post-op.

Over time... the pain wasn't as bad... and it ended up taking me almost a year to conceive Cadence. The pain came right back after she was born... it wasted no time. Which was baffling because I wasn't supposed to be ovulating. So, I was placed on birth control. Which didn't work either... and hell didn't keep me from getting pregnant with Kaleb. (which i do NOT regret)

I had Kaleb and was good to go for about a year. I was thrilled, because I would dread waiting for the pain to start again. Just when I left my guard down... it attacked. It came back full force and with a vengeance. So I had the Mirena implanted. After loads of research and talking with my doc we figured this was the best bet.

Things seemed to be getting better and I was sooo happy. You could not imagine! Well, about a year ago... the pain started to creep its way back into my life. Little by little... not really effecting me too much at first. Then WHAM! It made its move to try to kill me I swear.

After continual testing: labs and ultrasounds.... all normal again... It is time to go under the knife again. I am scheduled for surgery the middle of February. What a way to turn 30 right!? Hey let me cut you open. ha ha ha

But hopefully, I get some better answers this time.

It is hard having so many things built up inside... and not being able to release them all.

Well... off to clean and play... much love to you all!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Double Time...

Well... it has been a long time since my words have graced you all! So many things have been going on... but I am going to focus on one thing right now.... My health.

This year I will be turning the big 3-0! I have never really had any problems with age or aging. Really it is just a number and I have felt 80 years old for years... so why would turning 30 be any different?!

Well, my health has only be faltering over the years and my friend is also feeling the icy cold hand of deteriorating health. I am so proud of her quiting smoking!!!! WOO HOO GO YOU!!!

Well, I quit smoking for good back in October when the last cigarette I had tried to suck the oxygen from my lungs. I had my very first ever severe asthma attack. Let's just say, laying on my living floor feeling the chill from its hardwood surface while gasping for any air to enter into my lungs while losing feeling my extremities and face going numb... Is not how I would like to finish a cigarette.

Well, I didn't light up again. And really didn't have many problems with choosing life over death in this battle.

Well, then Jennie and I decided that it was time to start working out... taking better care of ourselves. We used to do Billy Blanks Tae Bo... so we pulled out the old dusty VCR and blow off the cobweb covered VHS tapes... and started working out. We have lasted a week and each day gets better and we are actually able to complete the workout with out succumbing to the lung tightening pain that tries to squeeze out our last breathes.

I have also been doing other exercises as well. Trying to tone all the areas that sure do need it. ha ha ha ha!!! This past week, I have felt so refreshed and energized and calm. I also want to eat better and less, so I have begun to do that as well.

I truly plan to stick with this... Not only would I like to look good and lose some weight...I want to be healthier!

Well, off to relax! Much love to you all!