Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Some updates

There are just so many things going on in my world right now that I am in complete brain overload. There are so many things I want to talk about but the majority of the are taboo at this point and some even only permitted to be thought and not verbalized.

It has been a while since I have been on here and I will just give you all an update on my world... until I am able to sort out the overabundance of chaos rushing through my brain.

Well, for starters... I found another old friend... and that made my day, which is always does!

October has come and gone... and it has been a full year since I had viral meningitis... the start to the year of sickness for me. Well... I didn't go unscathed this October either! Damnit!!! I was getting what I thought was some simple congestion maybe a chest cold. Turned out that the Thursday before Halloween, I was rushed to the ER. I have pleurisy, had an upper resp infection (thank God for antibiotics) and I had a severe asthma attack. The first one of my life.

I was diagnosed with asthma when I was about 25-26 years old. Used a fast attacking preventative albuterol inhaler as needed for wheezing... that was it for the past few years. Well, my symptoms have only progressed and my lungs I am guessing decided to turn their backs on me... I ended up gasping for air on my living room floor begging to go to the ER. Now when I say begging, at first the dork (to put it politely) I live with was like oh you aren't turning blue. I would have choked him out if I could have.

While gasping for some air, I would have to separate my words by syllables telling him can't breathe, pain, dizzy, can't feel hands or feet... Within minutes my hands and feet were BLUE! I couldn't walk I couldn't lift my head! I thought I was going to pass right now. I was crying and there was just so much pain!

Well, finally we get there.... I get some emergency treatments and can finally catch my breath. NOT FUN!!!! The whole next day my hands and arms (after having been deprived oxygen for way TOO long) were completely contorted. I looked like I had just suffered a stroke. I couldn't move them with out a tickled like pain! Not my best look! :)

Well, I had my follow up with the doctor yesterday and he said my lungs still sound really bad... I am now on a long term inhaler twice a day with the use of my fast attacking inhaler when necessary. OH SWEET JESUS!!! I CAN BREATHE!!!!!

Well, needless to say, after having bee released from the hospital last year... days later I was out trick or treating with my kids, you bet you ass I was out there with them this year. NO I do NOT have a death wish! But I am a devoted mama... and there are just some things I will NOT miss out on. Especially right now. (More to come on that another day!)

I did however have to miss out on Cadence's class Halloween party. For starters I couldn't breath, just got out of the ER at 3am the night before, and finally I had no control of my arms. Not a happy day for this mama!

Well, It is now November! Not far from Thanksgiving and Christmas soon to follow. Then before you know we will be waking up saying It's already 2010? WTF!!!! The end of the first grading period is coming up and I am looking forward to reports this year. I am getting them from 2 kids... that excites me for some reason! I love to acknowledge the great accomplishments of my children.

Unfortunately, I have terrible news as well. My step-mother's sister has lost her battle to cancer. My Aunt Carol was one of the most amazing women I have ever been blessed to know. She was soo full of life and love that I would be honored to have even a thimble full of the wonder she had! She will be greatly missed and forever loved while never forgotten!

I sometimes think of how she was an Angel of God sent here to share with us! I was reading through quotes last night (like I do most nights) and come across this one... I will share it with you!

A brief candle; both end burning
And endless mile; a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all apart of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird, You're free at last..... Charlie Daniels


Jen said...

Sorry to hear about your Aunt.

Thanks for sharing that quote. I like that one.